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aku rela.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008

i had myself crying. thinking why i always had to think of him.
my friends kept reminding me that i cant runaway from the truth.
but the fact is that i want to deny it. i don't want to feel this way.
im sick and tired of feeling this way.
all my life, i have been in this same situation and i end up at the losing end.
i know im gonna get hurt. same goes to all that happen to me in the past.
i never had a happy ending. it all only made myself felt horrible and disgusting.
i dont wanna be selfish and choose to want to be the only one that's crazily in love with you.
let's face that fact that i still dont know you that well.
although i have intentions to want to get to know you better but i hesitate to do so.
i'm scared.afraid of what the outcome would be.
as it is right now, i cant decide if im following my heart or the voice that's in my head.
and therefore i've decided to leave this whole thing before i make situations worse or say something that's meant to be unsaid or make myself look and feel like a rottenpeanut.

i know its all about making the right choice.
tapi buat sementaranya, aku perlu mengundur diri supaya kau dapat bernafas tanpa aku selalu di sana, mengganggu kau dengan hidup kau yang hampir bahagia.

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