happiness wont last.
Monday, August 4, 2008
I miss you.
like really.
although i dont want to.
but i often think of you.
then i ask myself why.
and i couldnt answer it by words.
my answers comes in my dreams.
and some had come in my dreams lat night as nightmares again.
maybe i should stop asking myself questions that aren't meant to be answered.
all they do is kill me.
i found a new friend. although she's younger, she thought me a few things i never thought i'd know.
if only i could open up my eyes a lil bigger and realise a few things that many are blind to see.
she told me that she never wanted happiness. coz if she had it, she'd only get hurt in the end coz happiness wont last.
people may see her as being selfish and all but the fact is that in her every prayer, she only prays for the happiness of others.
she only prays for what money cant buy.
i couldnt help but teared during my conversation i had with her.
it was really and eye opening for me.
we're chasing after people and things that are worthless when we die.
why waste your effort trying to chase after something that you think can be yours when your fate could end anytime the next day, or the next morning, or tonight, or this very minute you're reading this post.
how sure are we that we'll continue to breathe till we have a boyfriend then get married then have lil angels then grandchildren?
how sure are we that we can live that long?
k, i think im just being paranoid!
Labels: confusing myself.
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