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why?!
Monday, December 29, 2008

today was fine but i choose not to talk about today, coz the whole day today there were things bothering me. i couldnt help to think that in all ways, the girl wasnt me!
i dreamt of raiyan last night. i dont think im afraid to talk about my dreams anymore. considering the fact that the only two ppl i dreamt of this whole week was only raiyan and zul. the night when zul asked me to dream of the guy i wrote the poem on, i ended up dreaming of him when actually, zul isnt that guy. i guess. and when i dreamt of raiyan last night, it was a repeated dream. i dreamt that he was walking down that same old path with a different girl. of course i dont expect that girl to be me but the fact was that i knew who that girl was. i knew her very well actually. these dreams are killing me! i swear!



and i swear i wished i never have known you coz it kills to know that i got busted for that someone else.
had i not been there for you when you needed me?
or rather, was it the opposite, you were not there for me when i needed you.

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